It's August 1st!!!

It's August 1st and "She" is all I can think of- I hope we get to see her soon. I pray every night that she is warm and her tummy is full and that she can feel our love embracing her from here. In hopes of receiving our referral this month, I pray that she is very young so that she hasn't felt the absence of our love for too long. I pray she has lots of hair and that she has a button nose. I pray that she has 10 little fingers and 10 chubby toes. I hope she has long eyelashes and pink rosy lips. I pray she will be ours soon.
She is so loved already, even before we meet, not just by us, but by so many.

I spoke with my agency director this week and I almost fainted. I was so nervous I didn't realize he was just returning a call from earlier this month. I freaked out and couldn't even talk. False alarm! I have Chris on pins and needles as I remind him that this is very much like being close to a pregnancy due date. My water can break at any minute. Everyone at his job is on high alert. I've asked him to have his cell phone with him at all times. He even found a sign on another blog asking the Fedex guy to ring the doorbell when he delivers our referral package because he's delivering our baby. It's pretty funny!

So are we prepared? NOT!!! We have the essentials, lot of love and are ready to bring home a baby. That's all that matters. Everything else will come with practice.

This box means so much to us right now. Everyone pray that the bottom date changes to May 15, 2006 in August. May 15th, May 15th, May 15th!!!

How Matching Works

Look at the stacks of family files waiting to be matched with their babies. Somewhere in this room our file will find it's way to our baby. The employees in the matching room will review our file and look at the babies that are available for adoption and try to find some similarity between the two and that's how the magic happens. Our file could be on someone's desk right now waiting to find the perfect baby for us. It's going to be a hard couple of months. First the wait to see her face will seem endless and then the wait to go get her will be even more difficult.

Imagine knowing your child is half a world away and you can't run over there the next day to get her, hold her, squeeze her and tell her everything is going to be ok every night as you tuck her in to bed. Uggghhhh! Patience is not my best quality. This is the true test. Patience!!!

5 Chopsticks Left!!!!

So it looks like China referred through May 10th, 2006. If China refers 5 more days next month, we are in. I am beside myself right now with excitement! It is a very good possibility that we could see our daughter's face next month. I am close to tears thinking that our dream is so close to coming true. I want to run outside and scream to everyone that passes by that I will soon be a mom. Chris is so excited too. To be honest, I think it was more like shock when I told him the news this morning. It's almost here, it's almost time!

The tough part will be getting through one more month not knowing anything about our daughter. It's been 4 years and 2 months of waiting but it feels like these last 2 months will be the hardest.

We're almost there baby girl. I promise I'll be there as soon as I can.